7:00 a.m.
A bowl of berries with whipped cream and walnuts sat beside me as I read my Bible.
I asked, “Lord, what do You want me to know?”
And He said, I love you. I love you with an everlasting love.
Then gently,
You’re right where you need to be. Take a look – you’re sitting in an answered prayer.
The room was quiet except for the ticking of the clock and the chirp of birds in the morning sun.
I noticed something… there was no mental list running.
No pressure building.
No background stress humming underneath it all.
Nothing.
Just… peace.
Even my body felt different. My shoulders… relaxed. The kind of relaxed you don’t realize you’ve been missing until it shows up.
It made me realize how much we live braced – not just in our thoughts, but in our bodies. Like we’re quietly preparing for the next thing to drop. But this morning… there was no bracing.
It hit me – what if what I’ve been experiencing in my body – the recent sore back, yesterday’s random knee tweak as I sat down – isn’t things going wrong… but my body finally unwinding? Releasing years of holding, adapting, pushing through.
Because right now? As I sit here… this moment is peaceful on so many levels.
Are there shoes on the floor?
A small pile in the corner to sort through?
Yes, and yes.
But none of it is speaking shame. None of it is loud. It’s not even a quiet murmur.
I’ve just revamped my website, written one book, and am writing another – while also building something that’s still coming together.
There’s a lot in motion.
I could rush it. I could feel behind. But… I don’t.
Because today, God said it plainly:
You’re right where you need to be.
This is the process. This is the building.
And I realized something else… I already have what I need. Not because everything is finished, but because He’s already been pouring it in – the ideas, the words, the direction.
What I thought was “too much” or “scattered”… is actually a well.
I’m learning how to draw from it. I’m not scrambling to keep up.
I’m not chasing.
I’m floating in His river.